I'm sitting here in our giant, cozy chair, in the sun, sipping on a carrot/grapefruit/ginger juice made by the boyfriend (which, honestly,makes it taste even better). Saturdays are my work days and I love them. That's not to say I don't work on stuff during the week here and there but Saturdays are when I get a full 8 hours to just go. It's the time when I get the big stuff out of my head and onto paper or a Google document. I have the house to myself (the boys are with their dad) and the boyfriend works as well. It's. Soooo. Nice.
I'm one of those introverted-extraverts. Loves to meet new people and have a good time (that totally makes me sound like a swinger) but needs some serious downtime after. I really love the stillness, the quiet. I love music but not when I work...too distracting. I find I love it even more when the house is sparkling clean. I was one of those people that before I could start a project or whatever I had to clean or tidy or spruce. I'm learning to let go of that. Honest to god, I was that person who thought if that toilet isn't clean RIGHT NOW, there is just NO way I could possibly study or sew or paint. Those damn dishes kept me from my genius ideas too. I'm starting to think that was a delaying tactic. My new mantra...just get it done.
I have always been a thinker too. Big thoughts people! HUGE, grand ideas, NEVER FOLLOWED THROUGH. Never took action. Oh, well there were things I would start but I would never finish or I would quit.
"Hi, I'm Stephanie and I was a quitter for quite some time. I am also highly skilled at making excuses". (Can I add that after I wrote this line, I found myself glaring at a giant pile of clean laundry that has been residing on the couch since Tuesday?)
That changed about two years ago when I had to make the biggest decision of my life thus far. I saw clearly for the first time. I knew what I needed to do. I kept my head down, put blinders on and kept my eye on the prize. Even if that prize seemed to shift and change and wobble a little in the process.
I am finally following through and it feels so good and you know what? I'm finding it's far less work that I always thought it would be. It's a lot harder to keep it all in your head, building up, neatly layered with guilt and a heavy sprinkling of what-ifs, than it is to JUST DO IT.
Now, I'm a bit fan of jumping in head first, not an easy feat for capricorn Stephanie. It took a lot of hemming and hawing and freaking out before I felt like it was OK to hit "publish" or announce a program or send a newsletter to over 200 people. It's getting easier the more I do it. I am also wrapping my brain around me not being everyone's cup of tea. That is going to take a bit more stretching into. I'll keep you posted.
So tell me...What is your little dream, your idea that you haven't acted on because you've thought or reasoned you way out of it?